OHGODOHGODOHGOD. honestly? i was at the metaphorical edge of my seat throught he whole story ya know? and i completely forgot about the whole coin in the pocket bit. and then when it started creeping back into my conciousness i kept thinking omg john must have forgotten it too, it has to be it. it has to be that. because no matter how much i LOATHE john and his lack of any parenting skills what.so.ever (ifeelstronglyaboutthehelplessokay.shush), i kept refusing to believe that he had made a CHOICE. like you know, a concious decision to kill one of his sons, despite the fact that in canon he basically ordered his oldest to kill his youngest if he goes dark forgetting the whole 'choice' thing. like poor sammy had lost his very human ability to choose between wrong and right. like sammy wasn't human at all oops. rant. sorry.
anyway, when john gives him that look at the end is when it all slammed home for me and for long looong moments? i honestly couldn't breathe. and then there was this wash of helpless rage which made me want to throttle john and steal sammy away from him. and dean. and then whack john into going to therapy. and slap him repeatedly and pet him and slap him some more. points to him for trying? but really johhny boy please get some help before you kill your kids. again.
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honestly? i was at the metaphorical edge of my seat throught he whole story ya know? and i completely forgot about the whole coin in the pocket bit. and then when it started creeping back into my conciousness i kept thinking omg john must have forgotten it too, it has to be it. it has to be that. because no matter how much i LOATHE john and his lack of any parenting skills what.so.ever (ifeelstronglyaboutthehelplessokay.shush), i kept refusing to believe that he had made a CHOICE. like you know, a concious decision to kill one of his sons, despite the fact that in canon he basically ordered his oldest to kill his youngest if he goes dark forgetting the whole 'choice' thing. like poor sammy had lost his very human ability to choose between wrong and right. like sammy wasn't human at all
oops.
rant.
sorry.
anyway, when john gives him that look at the end is when it all slammed home for me and for long looong moments? i honestly couldn't breathe. and then there was this wash of helpless rage which made me want to throttle john and steal sammy away from him. and dean. and then whack john into going to therapy. and slap him repeatedly and pet him and slap him some more.
points to him for trying? but really johhny boy please get some help before you kill your kids. again.