I love this line of Sam... he sounds so much like his aged, matured S5-self it makes me want to hug you because you're so friggin' talented when it comes to Sam's voice “You'd be surprised,” Sam says, his tone still mild. “I may not have done exactly what you did, but I think if we started comparing notes on doing morally offensive things because it seemed like the end result justified it all, I think you might find I can at least sympathize. What,” he smiles a little sadly when Castiel looks up, startled in spite of himself. “You thought you had a monopoly on doing really regrettable things? Sorry to disappoint you, but it's a pretty big club you joined. You and I could be keynote speakers, though.” That line is a gut-puncher and so SAM and it made me want to hug Sam, which I rarely feel. Although I can't help but think that Dean'd be another speaker at that con, probably the closer. He definitely wouldn't be a keynote the way Sam is, but Dean'd have his own bit to say...
I love Sam going after Cas mostly for Dean and to prevent his big brother's heart from being shattered again but it's also partly for himself and it's so GORGEOUS when Cas realizes that Dean knew the whole time what Cas wanted to do... and the relief and forgiveness Dean offers.
You also utterly captured DEAN with Sam's observation “You don't earn forgiveness, but that doesn't mean you're not going to get it, either. That's just how Dean is,” Sam says, and his voice is filled with wistful-sounding regret and gratitude. “Even if sometimes I wish it didn't come so easily to him.” It's so true - Dean doesn't really have a blind spot when it comes to Sam. He knows full well what Sam did but he still offers unconditional love and forgiveness and he does so absolutely freely with no strings attached every single time. It's just who Dean IS... and Sam's right. You don't earn forgiveness and sometimes you don't deserve it, but you still get it. It breaks my heart more than a little that Sam wishes Dean didn't forgive so easily, but on the other hand, I think Sam needs someone EXACTLY like Dean who'll offer that unconditional love and absolution every time without question, hesitation or even being asked.
And I love that Dean has a busted leg and how Cas and Sam fill in for him physically and just give Dean the physical support he needs. And them bringing Dean pie for breakfast as a gift for being DEAN.
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I love this line of Sam... he sounds so much like his aged, matured S5-self it makes me want to hug you because you're so friggin' talented when it comes to Sam's voice “You'd be surprised,” Sam says, his tone still mild. “I may not have done exactly what you did, but I think if we started comparing notes on doing morally offensive things because it seemed like the end result justified it all, I think you might find I can at least sympathize. What,” he smiles a little sadly when Castiel looks up, startled in spite of himself. “You thought you had a monopoly on doing really regrettable things? Sorry to disappoint you, but it's a pretty big club you joined. You and I could be keynote speakers, though.” That line is a gut-puncher and so SAM and it made me want to hug Sam, which I rarely feel. Although I can't help but think that Dean'd be another speaker at that con, probably the closer. He definitely wouldn't be a keynote the way Sam is, but Dean'd have his own bit to say...
I love Sam going after Cas mostly for Dean and to prevent his big brother's heart from being shattered again but it's also partly for himself and it's so GORGEOUS when Cas realizes that Dean knew the whole time what Cas wanted to do... and the relief and forgiveness Dean offers.
You also utterly captured DEAN with Sam's observation “You don't earn forgiveness, but that doesn't mean you're not going to get it, either. That's just how Dean is,” Sam says, and his voice is filled with wistful-sounding regret and gratitude. “Even if sometimes I wish it didn't come so easily to him.” It's so true - Dean doesn't really have a blind spot when it comes to Sam. He knows full well what Sam did but he still offers unconditional love and forgiveness and he does so absolutely freely with no strings attached every single time. It's just who Dean IS... and Sam's right. You don't earn forgiveness and sometimes you don't deserve it, but you still get it. It breaks my heart more than a little that Sam wishes Dean didn't forgive so easily, but on the other hand, I think Sam needs someone EXACTLY like Dean who'll offer that unconditional love and absolution every time without question, hesitation or even being asked.
And I love that Dean has a busted leg and how Cas and Sam fill in for him physically and just give Dean the physical support he needs. And them bringing Dean pie for breakfast as a gift for being DEAN.
*cuddles this fic to bed*