Dean's right, it won't change anything to know what year it is, to know that the gaping void in his life is getting bigger and bigger with every passing day. It won't help to worry about the day when Dean won't be there anymore, and he won't even remember why not.

OMg, this was so sad! I got so caught up in the little details of Sam coping minute-to-minute that I didn't even think of the big picture of how his condition would affect him until the end. It was all shmoopy and sort of happy aside from evol!Jill and then WHAM with the sadness. Still enjoyed the read, though. ;)