In which I flail and panic about BigBang

[ratherastory]

I've already flailed in a really long-winded fashion at the lovely, patient, understanding folks who are doing BigBang with me, so this is more of a generalized, short-version flail.

1- I changed my mind about what I was going to write a couple of weeks ago. God.

2- I am PANICKING because the deadline is in five weeks and I've only got about 2,700 words written and OH GOD.

3- I think my new story might be too big to write. *headdesk*


Did I mention OHGODOHGODOHGOD. /o\


So since I have a decent amount of time to myself today, I am giving myself a wordcount goal for the end of the day of 5,000 words, so that I can at the very least feel as though I'm not falling into a black pit of writing-induced despair. There's a reason I usually only write things that are under 6,000 words. Gah!

Since wordcount meters have seen me through NaNoWriMo in the past, I figure I'll use one for this too, at least at the beginning. Once I have sufficient momentum going, the story itself should be enough to get me to the end.

2763 / 20000 words. 14% done!

I refuse to despair until April 30th.

Comments

[charis-kalos.livejournal.com]

I wonder if a BigBang is like a PhD. 'Cos at the end of my PhD I was writing 10,000 words a day and taking hour-long walks and reading the Palliser series by Anthony Trollope. Very weird adrenalin-fuelled productivity. Didn't last long, but when the deadline loomed I went mad. Maybe the BigBang deadline will have the same effect? (In which case you could substitute writing us drabbles for the hour-long walks and reading of Trollope. Win-win.)

[ratherastory.livejournal.com]

LOL

Drabbles, eh? Well, I suppose I could ask for prompts... It's not like I have FIVE other SPN projects on the go apart from BigBang... oh, wait.

[charis-kalos.livejournal.com]

Well, if you ever do call for drabble prompts, I want Dean and Sam thanking the people who helped puppy!Sam along his journey.