Oh, God, I'm neurotic

[ratherastory]

This is me being insecure and neurotic. Nothing to see here, move along.


Dear Self,

We have been over this. Just because a reviewer obviously didn't understand your story or maybe just didn't read it carefully does NOT mean you suck forever as a writer. Come on. There are plenty of people whose opinions you trust who told you the story worked just fine. One *anonymous* reviewer should not be enough to reduce you to a quivering pile of insecure goo.

Jesus H. Christ, woman, pull yourself together!

Love,

Me



Dear Anonymous Reviewer,

Really? You read all 8,000 words of that fic and came away with the notion that I have sympathy only for Sam and that I'm awful to Dean? Really?

I'm a little flummoxed that that's what you took away from the story. Truly.

Maybe you ought to read it again a little more carefully. Or, better yet, go away before I enlist Missouri to hit you with a spoon. I am all for constructive criticism, but that? That wasn't it.

No love,

Me

Comments

[tifaching.livejournal.com]

I stopped reading the episode comment forums on TWOP because I just couldn't stand all the DEAN!!! NO! SAM!!! Arguing that went on in the threads. There was a lot of good discussion there, but eventually certain people would show up with their pro Dean or pro Sam biases and the whole thing would devolve into a my character is more misunderstood than yours and I'd have to go away. I responded to an episode review from someone I'd never dealt with before and pretty much said what I said on every other one I did about how I thought Sam was right to do what he did for himself but it did hurt Dean and he was finally seeing how much and I got back a chilly, no Dean's just being an asshole type response. Last time I'll go there! After the negative comment you got on Deprivation I went to check it out and I saw who it was from and the remark about sadism. I left a comment on one of her stories once about how she always fixed the boys up after she hurt them and she responded that anything else was just sadism. Given the kind of fic I've been known to write, I sort of cringed at that and even though she's probably never even heard of me, never mind read my fic I felt like it was directed at me and my fic. So don't feel alone-neuroses abound in this and every fandom.

[ratherastory.livejournal.com]

I thought Sam was right to do what he did for himself but it did hurt Dean and he was finally seeing how much

Yes, exactly. I love Sam to bits, but he is self-centred (it's not all his fault, it's how he was raised), and sometimes he doesn't understand just how badly his thoughtlessness hurts Dean. In the same way, I don't think Dean gets that Sam is SO attached to him that it literally destroys him when Dean is hurt/somehow out of the picture. Dean has no concept of his own worth, and therefore the idea that he would be so important to Sam never even enters his mind.

I left a comment on one of her stories once about how she always fixed the boys up after she hurt them and she responded that anything else was just sadism.

Yeah, it's really not sadism. H/C is a genre, and one I really like, but it's not the ONLY genre out there, and sometimes pain can be inflicted without there being an immediate fix. The show has demonstrated that quite ably on multiple occasions. Sometimes there is no easy fix.