Heaven Without You

This is a Congratulations For Finishing Your Thesis Fic for authoressnebula, who is both talented and awesome. She requested more Sam whumpage, and who am I to say no? :)

Title: Heaven Without You
Summary: Sam gets taken by hunters, who have nothing pleasant in mind for him.
Spoilers: Gigantic, massive spoilers for 5.16, and general spoilers for all of Season 5.
Word Count: 7,842
Warnings: The usual bad language, a bit of gore.
Disclaimer: I'm not so much playing in Kripke's sandbox as I am standing with my nose pressed right up to the fence that keeps me away from the sandbox, sighing longingly at all the shiny toys in it. In short: not mine, please don't sue.
Neurotic Author's Note: Congratulations, authoressnebula, on finishing your thesis! You rock! Have some hurt!Sam and protective!Dean as your reward. :)
Neurotic Author's Note #2: I watched 5.16 yesterday and it broke me even worse than 5.14, and I didn't think that was possible. It made me SO GODDAMNED SAD that I had to make an attempt to fix things in my head, and this is the result.
Neurotic Author's Note #3: No beta, very little revision, and I'm not 100% happy with some of it, but I'm posting anyway, because history has shown me that my neuroses often have very little basis in reality.
Neurotic Author's Note #4: *cough* Yeah, I know, I could have been writing my BigBang, but, you know how it goes...



( Heaven Without You )

Heaven Without You

This is a Congratulations For Finishing Your Thesis Fic for authoressnebula, who is both talented and awesome. She requested more Sam whumpage, and who am I to say no? :)

Title: Heaven Without You
Summary: Sam gets taken by hunters, who have nothing pleasant in mind for him.
Spoilers: Gigantic, massive spoilers for 5.16, and general spoilers for all of Season 5.
Word Count: 7,842
Warnings: The usual bad language, a bit of gore.
Disclaimer: I'm not so much playing in Kripke's sandbox as I am standing with my nose pressed right up to the fence that keeps me away from the sandbox, sighing longingly at all the shiny toys in it. In short: not mine, please don't sue.
Neurotic Author's Note: Congratulations, authoressnebula, on finishing your thesis! You rock! Have some hurt!Sam and protective!Dean as your reward. :)
Neurotic Author's Note #2: I watched 5.16 yesterday and it broke me even worse than 5.14, and I didn't think that was possible. It made me SO GODDAMNED SAD that I had to make an attempt to fix things in my head, and this is the result.
Neurotic Author's Note #3: No beta, very little revision, and I'm not 100% happy with some of it, but I'm posting anyway, because history has shown me that my neuroses often have very little basis in reality.
Neurotic Author's Note #4: *cough* Yeah, I know, I could have been writing my BigBang, but, you know how it goes...



( Heaven Without You )

Oh, God, I'm neurotic

This is me being insecure and neurotic. Nothing to see here, move along.


Dear Self,

We have been over this. Just because a reviewer obviously didn't understand your story or maybe just didn't read it carefully does NOT mean you suck forever as a writer. Come on. There are plenty of people whose opinions you trust who told you the story worked just fine. One *anonymous* reviewer should not be enough to reduce you to a quivering pile of insecure goo.

Jesus H. Christ, woman, pull yourself together!

Love,

Me



Dear Anonymous Reviewer,

Really? You read all 8,000 words of that fic and came away with the notion that I have sympathy only for Sam and that I'm awful to Dean? Really?

I'm a little flummoxed that that's what you took away from the story. Truly.

Maybe you ought to read it again a little more carefully. Or, better yet, go away before I enlist Missouri to hit you with a spoon. I am all for constructive criticism, but that? That wasn't it.

No love,

Me

Oh, God, I'm neurotic

This is me being insecure and neurotic. Nothing to see here, move along.


Dear Self,

We have been over this. Just because a reviewer obviously didn't understand your story or maybe just didn't read it carefully does NOT mean you suck forever as a writer. Come on. There are plenty of people whose opinions you trust who told you the story worked just fine. One *anonymous* reviewer should not be enough to reduce you to a quivering pile of insecure goo.

Jesus H. Christ, woman, pull yourself together!

Love,

Me



Dear Anonymous Reviewer,

Really? You read all 8,000 words of that fic and came away with the notion that I have sympathy only for Sam and that I'm awful to Dean? Really?

I'm a little flummoxed that that's what you took away from the story. Truly.

Maybe you ought to read it again a little more carefully. Or, better yet, go away before I enlist Missouri to hit you with a spoon. I am all for constructive criticism, but that? That wasn't it.

No love,

Me